Time for Change....

Hi everyone! It feels like it's been an eternity since I last posted! I made a commitment to myself to spend LESS time online and MORE time playing with Brenlee and Cadence. It's the BEST decision ever for me, but unfortunately, not for those of you out of towners who log on daily/hourly to see updates on the girls. I'm reading the book, Live a Thousand Years by Giovanni Livera. It's taking me a while to read it, as I am living it...and I can only change so much at any given moment! Here are the things I've taken from the book so far:
1. Your time is NOW. Don't dwell on the past and don't worry a whole lot about tomorrow.

2. I must take care of myself physically, spiritually, and mentally----The longer I live, the more opportunities I have to gain experience. I am changing my thoughts of feeling like I "have" to do things, to I "get" to do things. Everything I do is worth enjoying.

3. No matter where I am in my life, I have two options. The negative one and the positive one and once I start making positive choices with a positive attitude, this life journey becomes easier. This even reads true to feeding time with the girls!!!! (Which was not fun at all about a  month ago!) 

4. I can share my Treasures, my Talent and my Time. I can measure success by what I give rather than what I have. 

5. With strong Faith in God, all of my relationships with grow. I've always felt that all things happen for a reason and now I'm understanding that  the people we let into our lives become a part of us, they make us who we are. Livera writes, "Four relationships to cherish and kindle are you creator, your family, your friends, and your fellow man." So, I'm going to invest time into relationships that are important to me.

I'm about half way through the book.....and my dad couldn't have gifted this book to me at any better time.....refer back to the 5th lesson learned.....it came into my life at just the right moment for a reason! 

As most of my close family and friends know, it has been very challenging the past year. There have been days that I just want to give up and send my girls to daycare and go back to work. Work was much easier. Along with financial stress of dropping my income and adding the expense of two babies, I've come very, very close. About a month ago, before I started reading this book,  I started applying for jobs. Teaching, daycare positions, work-from-home jobs, etc. I've been crunching numbers and freaking out about going in the hole financially. Then it hit me. I will NEVER get this time back. EVER. Once it's gone, it's gone. The girls are growing up at an exponential rate and will start Kindergarten in just 4 more years. If we opt for Pre-Kindergarten, then I just have 3 more precious years with them at home with me. I will do what I have to do and everything does happen for a reason. It won't kill me to put the girls into a day program and go back to work and if that's what God has planned, I'll go at it with a positive attitude....but so far, no door has been opened up in the realm of a job for me. So, I'm feeling comforted knowing that He will provide for our family as long as I accept and trust Him. 

Refer back to the 5th thing I learned, again. Brent started a new job back in August 2011.  Well, one of his close coworkers invited us to go to his church this weekend. We've been looking for a home church for a long time now. We had just decided to go back to a church that we attended when we first moved to Irving, although we didn't just love the pastor when we were attending. Remember how people are put into your life at just the right time? I'm looking forward to it, it's on Saturday evening. They provide Nursery care/School for Brenlee and Cadence, as well. It'll be their 1st time being in the hands of complete strangers without Momma or Daddy around. Yes, I'm a bit nervous, and please pray with me that it goes smoothly. They will get to sing, dance, praise and worship, play instruments, do bible lessons, and make new friends while Brent and I get to draw closer to God together though sermons. 

The girls will be waking soon from their morning nap, and the house is still a HUGE mess....it's an obstacle course of pillow pets, blocks, books and other random toys that they love to string though out the hallway! BUT I sure ain't gonna clean while they're awake, as that'd be a WASTE of precious time! Bahaha......ya'll know I hate cleaning, so this book gives me a reason not to feel so guilty about a messy house! Oh, and the Banana Nut/ Blueberry Bread I'm baking is smelling done!

Stay tuned for more blogs about the work God does in our lives!

Question for you:
How do you make the most of your time???

A Past Due Letter-

Dear Cadence,
Baby girl, you are growing up so fast. Just 9 months ago all you did was eat and sleep.....and cry. Now, you are standing on your own two feet, walking and babbling. You are very strong physically. You decided to start crawling right before you turned 6 months old. You did what we called the "Walrus." You would get up on all fours and lunge yourself forward and do a belly flop. It got you where you wanted to go and that's all that mattered to you! It also made an interesting afternoon for those around watching you.  After watching your sister, Brenlee, do a standard crawl, you decided to change your style. The day before you turned 9 months old, you took your first steps. Now, at 9 1/2 months old, you are zipping across rooms, zooming down the hall and doing pivots! You amaze me little one! You are starting to express yourself with sounds, too. Sha, sha, sha, ta, ta, ta, ma,ma,ma, bwa, bwa, bwa, and da,da,da are your favorite things to say. I love how you play with your fingers as you are walking and the jibber jabber you mumble to yourself while on the go. You are very smart and stay ahead of the game in all you do. You are strong and God has given you the gift of determination and perserverance; it shows even at the tender age of 9 months. One of my favorite things to do with you is snuggle in bed. You wake up before Brenlee a lot of the time and I enjoy our one on one time. You give slobbery, affectionate, open-mouthed kisses and smile as big as you can when I kiss you back. One of your favorite things to do is swing by your arms. You squeal with delight at the first thought of flying through the air! Many times you get the whole family laughing during your episodes of hysteria, your laughter is contagious.  I'm very blessed that the Lord trusts me with you. It's an honor to be your momma. I Love you my baby Cade......love you with all my heart and soul.

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