Double Digits

So in less than 3 more days, Brenlee and Cadence will be 10 weeks old! It seems like ages ago that we were having to syringe feed Brenlee and leave tears behind at the NICU for Cadence. So much has gone on in this short amount of time! Just when I think I have things figured out, poop hits the fan! It's been very frustrating for me. I know it's God's way of putting me in my place, though. I'll admit, I like control. I always have. Even as a teacher, I was able to control the way my classroom functioned. I was good at that. These babies are challenging me in every way possible! I guess it's pushed me so far out of my comfort zone that I sometimes feel I might break from the pressure. Our house is usually a disarray. Right now, this is my living room.
 I had to talk myself into eating instead of cleaning--as both girls are asleep in their swings and who knows when they'll wake! Speaking of that-that's another challenge. I always like to be "ahead of the game." I have always been one that doesn't procrastinate and I like to be one step ahead. I honestly start to feel like I'm drowning when I'm not ahead. So.....yesterday and today, in my old mind, would be similar. BUT, I've learned that every day is different. I tried to get the girls on a schedule. Yeah, right. They eat, sleep, wake whenever they want to. When I try to interfere, it makes things 10 times worse for us all! It's so hard to give my old ways up. I know that it's typical and that ALL moms and dads go through this--whether they'll own up to it or not, is their choice! It was an overnight transition, literally. I know that I've got to get better at rolling with the punches and stop trying to predict things. I'm no fortune teller. I will get over my house being cluttered. I will also let go and spend some "me" time outside in the sunshine, soaking up the vitamin D. Oh, and listen to MY music! LOL, I've been listening to nothing but Christian Worship, Classical and White noise for 2 months +. It was a nice change today to hear Usher, Pink, Daughtry, Sister Hazel........you get the point! So...........enough about me!
A week and a half ago, Brent went and got the BIG V! Yep, he got fixed. Since we were 18, we always wanted 2 kids. We're sticking with that and later on, if we decide that we want bless our house with another child, we will adopt a little boy. There are so many kids out there that need a good home and I feel it'd be selfish to have anymore when I could take one of them into my heart. Brent's recovering well and should be back to himself in no time! Alright, you're patiently waiting for news about the twins :)
Brenlee is not crying as much--were down to probably a few hours per day instead of 1/2 of the day. Cadence is about the same, except for when she gets overly tired and then can't go to sleep. Both girls got very sick last Friday. Brenlee was spuing out both ends and Cadence was backed up and spuing up top! It was aweful and I'd never wish that on even my worst enemy. Both were unconsolable for most of the day....up until 2:00am. Thank God Aunt Janna came over in the evening and Taylor and Mikkah stayed the night to help out. The formula was the culprit :( So, we just went back to square one. Similac Advance. That's all. No cereal, no syrup, no gripe water. Just water, a bit of juice, some gas drops and formula (and their perscription of Zantac). Every other day I'm giving Cadence some laxatives to help move things along, too. It was hellacious once we switched. The girls liked the taste of the Alementum....today it seems to have gotten better. They haven't fought their bottles at all. They're definately going thru a growth spurt, too. Brenlee has been eating every 3 hours or so, atleast 5 ounces per feeding. Cadence is eating every 3-4 hours, too, 5-7 ounces per feeding. Today they were both awake at the same time and very content! That has only happened 2 other times in the past 2 months! Here are some videos of them today!


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SO............all in all, I'm learning lessons every day. I sure wish I wasn't as stubborn as I am. Please God, deliver me from my old attitudes and give me the strength and persaverance to be the BEST momma possible for Brenlee and Cadence! Amen!